i need your discipline

This started out as a Tweet, then I realized it was actually a YST entry...

There are all these mentions in rerp, especially, and occasionally in conversation... that Leon and Sabrina have the definite potential to be sent to the same places. Anything the president would be sending one of his best men to handle would be very serious. If any smidge of that information, regarding whatever this thing is, got leaked... the news would be on it like crazy.

Why can't that happen?

I wrote one one-shot, once, about the concept. That was silly and cute and, most of all, short. This could be something huge.

Something... full-length...

I knew you didn't ask for that job, baby.

I knew it.

:D :D :D

Title: "Greenbelt" (2147 words)

Summary: It's all come down to this. After all the pain, misunderstandings and distance, things are finally resolved! And nicely, too!

Warnings: Sugary sappy sweet BLEH. But you know you want it.

Pairing: SRSLY FOR SRS SABRION. :D :D :D

Author's Note: No clue what to even say here. Honestly... I'm kind of relieved.

Last time I was shocked and nervous, but this time, yeah. Relief is coming out over everything else. Relief that I saw another step through? Relief that I've finished something I've had a hard time recently? I don't know. But that is the predominant thing.

I feel like I need to have this epic author's note, but you know what? I already had one at the end of Sacrifice, I had a giant thing after that, like. The transitional entry. So why do I really need another one, right now? If I come up with something really important and vital to say about this process, I can always come back and fix it.

For now, though, I will say that this took so long for a couple reasons. One, I mean, nobody really wants to FINISH the shit they've been working on for well over a year straight. That's a weird feeling. Two, I must admit, I still have my own personal reservations about these two having a canon happy ending. It feels... funny. Not wrong or weird, just funny. I'm sure I'll get over it. Long ago I said something like... "I KNOW WHAT I THINK IS CANON!" Of course, that was... not a happy ending. But this is what happened, so there you go.

I don't think I'm done here. Again. So that's probably part of my ease too. I'm at ease! Enjoy the hard-earned happy. I did, pretty much. Thanks for sticking it out again! :D

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That, of course, didn't take nearly as long. LOL. The post-canon is probably around 35,000 words. Less than a third the length of Sacrifice. LOL.

I didn't place any notes on the edits of the post-canon, because they're not parts of the big fic, and none of them were major edits. I think the biggest change I made was adding like, a sentence to a part. Other than that, all grammar and flow.

I don't have a list of interesting things this time, other than... it's hard to be objective, because this stuff is so recent. But I expected that, because I experienced it with Sacrifice editing back in the day. Also, Superman is so totally my favorite part. LOL. Surreal and Superman are the dynamic duo!

( A few things. Spoilers. )

Now. O.O;

Alrighty.

I have finished the full read and edit of Sacrifice. It took quite a while, but that's to be expected!

Interesting things about it:

1) I took 1,189 words out of it this time. Talk about trimming! It's now just over 111,000 words.

2) It's actually funny how much it feels like two different, shorter fics. I doubt I would ever split it up that way, but it would be entirely possible.

3) "Surreal" is definitely my favorite part. Not far and away, but still very much so. (I adored "Surrogate" this time, too. Weird.)

4) The pace is better than I imagined it was. I thought it was choppy, it's really not.

So, more importantly, the work is not done. There are some things that need to be looked at, and I tried to make notes of them when I got tired of a part or knew it wouldn't be best done this time. It's pretty spoilery, I would say... as it details things I intend to do to the fic later.

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Parts I evidently want to work on more in the future:

Melting.
Sanctity.
Fortune.
Shadow.
Fragment.
Altered.

Not that much left. Expect a similar post about the post-canon later.

Evidently my maternal aunt and uncle-a-la-marriage got a dog from a breeder in Ellicott City this weekend. I hope they took pictures!

I had been planning on sitting on my ass and doing nothing today, but then I tossed around the idea of editing/reading some more. Just when I was about to say no way, my mom said that, and there we have it.

I'm fifteen parts deep and have edited out over 300 words for clarity and succinctness's sake. So, I am working! It's taking longer than I expected it to by a little, but I'm hoping I can get a lot done of it today. My real goal is three parts. My lofty goal is the current record, five.

Progress report. I has it.

I do a lot of editing on this baby. More than I ever have with any other fic. The list of edits was getting much too big for the YST for Dummies entry, so it was time for this guy.

Below is a list of every major edit, or edit to a major part of the big fic, I have done thus far:

( Newest edits are at the top of the list. )

Man. Aaaaalright.

After last night's gaming, I am especially geared to write, but like. I really wanted to read all of Sacrifice and the earlier PC before I did the final part. So it may take me a really long time to get that last one up. Like, some weeks. Don't be surprised!

I really wish I had a magic way to read it at work without anybody knowing (read: HR/Tech Support/etc) what I was doing. And sorry, I'm not printing out hundreds of pages to lug around. LOL. Maybe I'll come up with something. A couple parts at a time, printing double-sided? I don't know. Maybe I'll just work on the poor forgotten table when I'm at work. Because I have completed all my actual-work projects, of course.

Also, do not be surprised if some more edits appear as I read. I'll of course update the YST for Dummies entry in that event.

So in closing, times may be quiet or one-shot-filled!

Title: "Lover" (1652 words)

Summary: Leon ties up a couple loose ends before he can make a big decision the next day.

Warnings: None I can think of right away.

Pairing: SHE'LL BE COMIN' 'ROUND THE MOUNTAIN WHEN SHE COMES huh huh

Author's Note: How have I never had a part named this. (Yes, a table drabble called Lovers was in the potential works, but still!)

The reason this one took so long was, actually, I was trying to start it in a place it really didn't need to be started. It's possible I'll revisit the chunk I was trying to write, as a one-shot. Just because it's cute and funny. But it was superfluous, and this works just as well!

I think it's pretty obvious how surprised, dare I say pleasantly, I was when I saw Hunnigan showin' up in Degeneration. I was positive we'd never see her again, and I love the dynamic the two of them have. I feel like that professional relationship would grow to the point I portray it at very quickly.

Other than that... get this... there is only one part of the post-canon remaining! ONE. And that is all! I look forward to writing it, and I know you look forward to reading it! All will be well!

It's sorta late and I'm sorta sleepy and didn't really edit... meh. But I am happy with this product. V. pleased!

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Title: "Human" (1660 words)

Summary: Sabrina's real story hits the air.

Warnings: The marked presence of things wrapping up...

Pairing: It's coming..

Author's Note: I had half this part written in May. This is what I was rewarding myself with with my Sacrifice overages. It's been fully done for daaaays. It's kind of a big deal.

I like this one. It didn't need a lot. Let's see... because not everyone is a) from the DC area and b) caring about all the news channels in the world, you may not know who used to sit at the big ol' desk with Kathleen Matthews. (Well, he's still there, she's not.) It's a silly detail that's otherwise nonsensical.

Times are winding down. This is the last Sabrina-only part... so I would expect some more struggles in the weeks to come. What the hell is Leon gonna think of this? Who knows.

...I'm sure youknowmapgirl does... :D?

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Title: "Jungle" (1679 words)

Summary: Leon follows up with Webster and meets someone he wasn't expecting.

Warnings: Lot more language in this one.

Pairing: Oh come on now you're reading the post-canon.

Author's Note: Seriously I am sick to death of looking at this. I'll have to come back to it when everything is done. LMAO. I just cannot be on this part anymore. 12 days was forever in Sacrifice, and those were twice as long!

Enjoy...?

I swear to you I love the next one. Should be up in, anywhere from an hour to twenty-four hours. LOL.

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jaguars_in_Mesoamerican_cultures



    She glanced up at him as she was thinking. "What does the new metal thing look like, anyway?"

    He had yet to have the time to consider it. In fact, he had to pause to remember which pocket he had placed it in in his hurry. After some patting around, he produced it and saw some sort of harsh-looking cat creature with pronounced spots. It had been carved in that same primitive style. "I don't know. A leopard? A cheetah or something."

    "Not around these parts," she replied. "Probably a jaguar."

    Raising an eyebrow, he put it back in his pocket for continued safekeeping. "Okay, I guess."

    She shrugged, still focused hard on the map. "My dad's a teacher. I know a lot of stupid things about a lot of stupid things."

    He wanted to ask for more. He wanted to know things as simple as exactly what and who her father taught, and the much more complex that would take forever to describe properly -- where her life journey was headed, if there were any openings in it...

    But it wasn't the time, in more ways than one.

Title: "Rosslyn" (1662 words)

Summary: Sabrina returns to get her computer and gets a few surprises -- some very real and some very imagined.

Warnings: Langstiolence? How Sacrificial!

Pairing: I promise real Sabrion is coming soon...

Author's Note: This one I had a hard time ending, until the other night I realized that I had to end it a certain way because I am friggin' out of time here. After this part here, there is a Leon one, a Sabrina one that's already half-written, another Leon one... and then the final part. Aaaand final for real.

I was not this surprised about Sacrifice ending.

But there's still plenty! Almost, if not, 6500 words!

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Title: "Discretion" (1672 words)

Summary: Leon, many blocks away, is called in to mop up the long-term issues with Sabrina's Mexico story. The only problem is, he can't.

Warnings: New character, language, and a little bit of angst. Not as much as usual.

Pairing: A sort of torch-held brand of Sabrion. Their wistfulness has calmed down considerably, in favor of something slightly more mature.

Author's Note: This was faster than I thought, longer than I thought, and the new character was the opposite of how I planned. I realized he was too much like Sellers, so I turned 180 and made him totally different. Why not, right?

I do like this one, more reading it back than I did writing it. Rush job on posting, so let me know what formatting/typos need fixing tonight. Enjoy.

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Title: "Changed" (1652 words)

Summary: Less than a week after Sabrina's Mexico story hit the airwaves, she's being pressured for a follow-up. That's not the only thing she's struggling with these days.

Warnings: May be a little difficult to follow. And the ever-present emo.

Pairing: A slight step in the direction of a more conscious and desired Sabrion. Hell hath no fury.

Author's Note: So, here we go. The final third of the post-canon. This one was really hard for me, and I don't forsee many of the remaining ones being easy. Enjoy just the same!

I think if I were to ever subtitle the post-canon, which I think I would do instead of a fully-fledged title, it would be "What Have We Become?"

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LMAO, look, fandom.

Stop exploding bi-monthly. Whatever. This is nothing compared to the Degeneration trailer when I finally saw what was happening in it. I am like, a seasoned veteran of this now. Bring it.

...granted whenever I actually get the game I'm gonna be spazzing out, but that is neither here nor there.

Alright, honesty time! I have almost no idea what the final third of the post-canon is gonna hold for me. I have like, a single vague idea for all the parts... except one. There's one I have absolutely nothing for. That's not enough to get it to go. Times are gonna be slow and choppy, and I'm gonna be kinda mad. LOL.

So, I'm working on it as best I can...

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Edits are not massive. They didn't need to be. But I added two things and it was order-necessary!

Title: "Superman" (1689 words)

Summary: Sabrina has released her story, and her timing couldn't be worse. Leon makes sure to let her know.

Warnings: Slightly unexpected violence, a little language, and some flagrant use of italics. Also, Degeneration spoilers for this entire section (#8-#14).

Pairing: Sabrion and misunderstood L/An.

Author's Note: When I first knew the existence of one Angela Miller, I spent a whole day pretty much pouting. I was positive my fic was going to be ruined and impossible. Then I actually saw the movie.

This is the part that came to me when I thought there were going to have to be two post-canons -- a choose your own adventure of sorts. Ada A/Sabrina B, which was magic and cute and fabulous and so well-deserved; and Sabrina A/Angela B, the sad answer to my constant need to keep things as canon as possible.

This is what survived more concretely than anything else from the latter. So yes. This is sad, this is scary, this is a little hot in a strained, desperate way. It was once my favorite RE fic I ever did... if it's not still, it is damned close. Damned. Close. <3

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Title: "Phantom" (1673 words)

Summary: Sabrina revisits somewhere she never didn't expect to be again. She finds that the more things change, the more they stay the same.

Warnings: Nothing but emo, and possibly difficult-to-follow imagery. As a matter of fact, I think this one is free of Degeneration spoilers. You could possibly read this isolated.

Pairing: The usual for the post-canon.

Author's Note: I wrote this character, this little guy at the very beginning of this part, exactly one year ago today. Never would have thought he would come back, but when I had to come up with someone to be in this role, I had no other people in mind. Why not?

This was really easy to write, at least certainly compared to the other more recent parts, and I'll tell you why. I knew exactly what Sabrina was feeling, really. I haven't been in the Nochestrella in eight months. She hasn't been there in I guess five or six. It was easy to tap into that both alien and adjusted feeling.

So, yeah. I started Sacrifice exactly a year ago and I find that very hard to believe. I really like this one. Guess I just went through a funny snap, huh? Enjoy!

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